Day 41 : Overflow
Upon arriving in Herrnhut, I felt a different sense of “me.” Knowing I have came here to change who I was, but didn’t really know the effect on what that change consisted of. I don’t think many of us realize how powerful verbal words are. How powerful are prayers can be. And how much we take praying for granted. Not knowing the meaning behind such prayers, is so dangerous, but so beautiful. Praying to God to change you is a huge thing. But at that same moment, it seems like you are just praying for a small change. When you ask, He will give, and He will show His face to you. When you pray, expect changes and have expectations from Him.
I’ve learned these past few weeks, that simple prayers can move mountains. A mountain such as the one that lives inside my chest - my heart.
Lately I’ve been praying for God to soften my heart into clay for Him to mold. For Him to mold my heart, and intertwine it with His.
By asking these such things from Him, He worked through me, immensely. He has been putting revelation after revelation inside of me. He has been breaking my heart for what breaks His. He has been romancing me and swooning me daily. Whether it be me admiring the creation of His music and melodies, being snug in a warm sweater, or hearing the peacefulness coming from a water stream. He is romancing me, and making me realize what it is to worship Him in new different ways, and to appreciate Him more.
Since praying for my heart to break like His, just a few days ago, He did that exactly. During class devotion time, God just showed up so much, in the class, and moved each and everyone of us into weeping and laying out hearts down upon His feet. I gave Him everything I had, my tears, heart, words, love and hope. Layed it all down for Him, and thru this, He revealed to me a new identity He’s been waiting to reveal to me for a long time.
It’s like He planted a seed in Herrnhut, Germany for me to discover. And when finding that seed, I shall find my new identity. As a person and as a disciple. I now have a new outlook on Taylor Pool. He has revealed to me daily new things on who I really am. And I can’t believe that when I prayed to give my life up to Him, in return, I received life, and found a new identity. Amen!
Now, God is showing me new ways to worship Him.
Not only through photography, but also through writing.
I’ve always wanted to become an excellent writer, but never have been able to express my feelings that were deep down inside my heart. Now, God is revealing to me something completely new. He wants me to start to write, and use this writing as a tool for His glory. He wants to use it as much as He is using my photography.
God wants me to be a lover of Him. He has revealed to me that He wants me to worship Him through writing. He wants me to communicate to others the overflow of His heart, through mine, and form words to express this Divine Love.
This past week I was asked :
“Taylor, what style do you want to achieve in photography?”
And with that question, I told an answer I’ve never told before. An answer that changed my heart, and made me realize that God wants to change me daily, as a writer and as a photographer. I realized I have never said these words in my entire life, and just at this moment, God is using my words to reveal to me who I really am.
My reply was :
“A kid running into his Fathers arms.”
Simply that.
With more explanation :
“A kid running into his Fathers arms. Feeling that dramatic emotion when you feel your Father embrace you. How you never want to let go of that love, that feeling, that comfort and the dramatic feelings that arises in your deepest pockets of your heart. I want people to feel heartache when they see my photos. The kind of heartache where you are so overwhelmed with the intensity of the emotions that you are so lovesick for more of that ache. Where you haven’t felt your heart like that in your life, and you desire to feel those dramatic emotions again. A feeling of a Fathers love. I want my photos to be the overflow of Gods heart, through mine. I want them to be so emotionally dramatic, because that is how God made ME! And this is how I want to reproduce His love, through these dramatic, loving photos.”
With this explantion, one phrase stuck out in my mind :
“I’ll never let you go.”
That phrase, is something I want to you to feel when you see a photo of mine.
You never want to let it go, because you feel so warm, deep, loved, and comforted when you look at it. How you see the truth of life in my photos. How you see God in a COMPLETELY new different way in my photographs.
God has revealed to me a whole new different meaning of love, and what it is to be a lover. He has revealed to me what it is to worship, and how worship just isn’t music, it’s working, giving up your time, your words, your heart, your hope… all to Him.
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Welcome to God’s love.
How He never wants to let you go.
And when you decide to let go of Him, He experiences heartache, but will constantly chase after you and your love even more.
I hope that God has touched you dramatically in these words that He put on my heart to share. I hope that God will draw you closer to Him after reading this. I hope your heart will stop and sink down, and you will realize what you’ve been holding back from Him. He will reveal the deepest pockets in your heart, He will reveal His love for you like He has to me.
“I’ll never let you go.”
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“Gift of a Giver”
She gives her love away
Only for it to be taken away
By the ones who don’t deserve
This love at all
But she keeps giving
Keeps smiling
Keeps loving
To the ones who don’t deserve
This love at all
(This short poem that I wrote talks about how the girl, in this photo and poem, represent the Grace of God. Grace is a womens name, and in this photo, it shows the fictional characted named Grace, giving out God’s love, freely to you, smiling down upon the children of God.)
