Today was a very interesting day for me.
Woke up, was in a great mood, and very contemplative.
I felt like today was going to be a monumental day for some odd reason. It felt like Christmas for me; I was very excited for something I didn’t know, I was smiling, jumpy, just crazy for something unknown.
Maybe it was going to be the package my mom sent me? Or that I was going to find out where I’ll go on “mini outreach”, or just something unexpected?
As the day went on, we had class of course. This week is about finding more of who we are and how we were created to be. Meaning, what are the gifts that God has specifically given us? Spiritual, mental, physical, etc. After filling out this packet/survey to see what the results where, I was pretty shocked to say the least. It’s a bit hard for me to believe that what is in this packets holds my inner self. For the most part, the survey was right, but why do I have to rely on this to show me who I really am? Well, I honestly don’t rely on this at all, but it’s just good confirmation of what God has told me, or told through other people about me on who I am and how He created me to be.
After filling this out, we were asked to make a missions statement of our life goal and what we want to be apart of.
Man, this was the most difficult part for me. I know exactly what I wanted to do, but, having a guidline and requirments to fill out what my hearts desire is just doesn’t seem right. After writing 2 sentences I just scratched it all out because it felt so fake. I know what God has put on my heart, He has revealed to me who I am, and keeps on revealing. I just felt like this survey was good, but also just crap in a sense that I had requirements to share my heart, I had boundaries to only write 2 sentences or less. Blah!
If any of you are wondering, this is what the ” ol mighty and sacred” packet revealed :
Spiritual gifts - Prophecy and Intercession
Physical Abilities - Photography and Using the Senses
Natural Abilities - Showing Compassion, Comforting and Public Speaking
Mental Abilities - Visionary Thinking
And the 2 ministries my heart desires is :
1. Working with Christians who are struggling with Homosexuality or just Homosexuals in general
2. Worshiping thru various Art forms.
After soaking all this information about myself, a “block” or “wall” came up inside. I wasn’t really for sure what God was trying to reveal or even say to me. Even now, it is still unanswered…
I found out where I’m going on mini outreach now!
I’ll be headed to Hamburg, Germany on Nov 16th for a week! I’m sooooo excited! I’ll be able to work with prostitutes, drug addicts, homosexuals and college students for a week! What a broad range aye? I’m so excited to see how God will use me and the other 8 students who are going with me!
Tomorrow, my roommate Rene and I are leading morning worship for 30 mins. I’m pretty excited because it’s worship that we both LOVE to do = instrumental! I will hopefully have video of us playing to show you guys.
There is some of my heart for you,
With love,
- Taylor
